Today I’m telling a story. I cannot say that this is my story because I was not there. Though at times I do feel as though I was. The retelling was just that vivid and at it was told to me at a time in my life when I and things that happened around me seemed like the center of the universe. I got the idea of retelling this particular story here because recently I have been spending time with the man that was there and did lived it. I’ve ‘borrowed’ this tale more times than I care to mention but never for dishonorable ends. I told it from first person as though it happened to me not for any lasting personal glory, but because a story that begins with ‘Let me tell you what happened to this guy I know…’ does not have the same impact. When I sat down with the man to which this all happened to refresh the details I found out that the story I wanted to tell was just a core. There was a story within a story here. The first took place in the space of one night. The second took place over the following twenty odd years. I could tell the first story just the way I heard it and that would be worth a chuckle, but it would not at all be complete.
In the last few weeks I have been keeping a dear old friend company while he is convalescing. When I say dear old friend I mean that quite literally. We are in our forties now and I met Shawn when I was fourteen. In 1984 I spent most of my time doing what most fourteen year old boys do, and when I wasn’t doing that I was hanging around with friends like Shawn. Three years ahead of me in school Shawn and others seemed to really have their shit together. They were confident and sure of themselves and their place in the universe. I believed this in the way a kid does about anyone who older and more cocksure than they are. Much the same we believe such things now of anyone that displays more belief in themselves that we do in ourselves. Whatever the truth was Shawn and I took an instant liking to each other and for that brief span of two years I became a student to a master. Shawn was a funny guy. He was licensed to drive and had this beat up old van. It was a Ford Econoline I think, white with a brown stripe down the side. The words ‘Leisure Van’ inscribed on the upper back quarters next to a tiny Plexiglas portal.
An aside here. Shawn totaled that van in an asinine and legendary act of self-inflicted stupidity. At the intersection of Black Rock and Maisemoore in the neighborhood we grew up in there is a rise where the two streets intersect. It was thrilling to break the speed limit by fifteen miles or more per hour and ride over it to feel that familiar flying sensation you get like when going over a railroad crossing. Shawn, the aforementioned ‘master’ that seemed to ‘have his shit together’, took that hump at sixty-five miles per hour and like a pig sprouting wings that van took flight and hurdled through the air, steering wheel slack in Shawn’s hands. According to Shawn’s retelling his friends Albert and Bobby were in the van at the time. Albert in the front passenger seat. Bobby, unrestrained and in the middle of the vehicle. I heard tell that Bobby actually achieved zero G’s for less that a second and a half before the van, no longer a plodding earth bound thing but glorious in flight and akin to eagles, came crashing down on to the street as though the recipient of the god’s promethean judgment for daring to go where a van should not. A shower of sparks shot out from all sides of the thing as it’s suspension collapsed and it careened down the residential street scaring the concrete as it went. Thank God for oak trees. Incidentally, if you ever have the opportunity to place a bet on a conflict having to do with a Ford Econoline Leisure Van and a hundred year old oak tree, take the tree by knock-out in round one. No one was hurt no matter how deserving unless you count that van. And we did. It was sad to see it wrapped around that tree with it’s wheels splayed outward like some exhausted beast that was all in and couldn’t go another step. The radiator was of course destroyed and steamed furiously, the condensed rusty radiator fluid dripping off the mangled and twisted grill and headlights looking like tears. I just looked up the intersection on Google maps. The tree is not there anymore but never the less the van saw the worst of it. Alright then. Back to the main story.
Around the time I met Shawn he was running with a pretty eclectic crowd. We, he and I, were in the marching band and while the prevailing thought was that cliques formed around like social groups that rule did not see so important at our school. Shawn had friends from all over the school. The one common interest they all share for the most part was a love of fire arms.
Another aside here. This story takes place in Texas. Not quaint, liberal, fashionably-weird Texas, like Austin. This is gun-toting, beer-drinking, by-God, like-you-used-to-see-in-the-movies, Texas like everywhere else but Austin. In Texas we have a rich and glorious history with our guns. I do not personally own one, but I am grateful that I can. This story contains talk of guns and the discharge of guns, though at no time is anyone actually shot or even shot at. If you consider that gun violence then consider yourself warned. Another tradition in Texas, you only get one warning. Usually with a gun.
One weekend Shawn and his friends decide to go camping. At least that was the cover story. Though the plan, actually they referred to it as a ‘mission’, did include staying out overnight, the goal of the mission was to steal a boat and pilot it across Lake Houston just for the hell of it. This instance of freshwater piracy would never materialized. The group convened at Mike’s house near Intercontinental Airport, presently named George Bush Intercontinental Airport. Shawn’s friend Mike was a scary guy. Not big, tough, and mean, scary like a biker. More like genius, clockwork orange, no humility, scary like Hannibal Lecter. Mike was a few years older than the other guys and had already graduated. What he was doing hanging with a bunch of high school kids is likely a better question for a therapist than me. Mike had a brother named Chuck. Chuck might have been as bright as Mike but I did not know him and for the retelling of this adventure he was represented to me as a stoner moron. He and a couple of his friends went along for the ride. Shawn listed a few other names like Eddie, Caesar, and another Mike I think. Honestly at the time of my note taking Shawn was a little foggy and was prone to a lot of repetition. This seems to be a semi permanent condition. He is lucid of course but there is a prevailing weariness about him now. Likely a by-product of nearly dying from his diabetes. Shawn was found face down in his apartment in the Dallas Fort Worth area alive but non responsive to EMTs after missing three days of work without calling in. That is how he came to be in this nursing home in the first place. It is phenomenal what the human body can take by way of wear but it takes its toll and I was looking at the evidence of that right then.
Setting out from Mike’s place was as enthusiastic as you might think it would be. Young men fully armed and full of juice, heading out to do no good and to bring back some story of personal bravado. It sounds ridiculous to some but I’m smiling as I type this just thinking about it. Hell raising, not strictly a Texas tradition, is a universally understood concept to most guys. It is generally thought that a man without scars has not lived well. I am inclined to agree. The trip to the lake area was not a long one but to understand Shawn the party of young men did take a more rural route. They wanted to do a little shooting before the actual mission. The boys found themselves out near some rural road at a railroad crossing. There was one light for the surrounding area and it was hanging from a telephone pole that was next to the train tracks.
They shot at targets. They shot into the air. They shot just to here the report of the guns in the echoless flat wet environs that is the bulk of the Gulf Coast. I’ve done this kind of shooting and, while not wanting to make too much out of it, if you don’t do it often then being around freshly fired guns and indeed firing them yourself is somewhat cathartic. High velocity explosive contained in a simple machine, that has not changed in principal in hundreds of years, allowing you to have common sensation with people that have long since passed. Perhaps even treading the same ground they were on. The ground that was now a farm and held privately by citizens that did not care to have potential poachers shooting up their property. The first shots woke and alarmed the farmers in the surrounding area.
What happened next in all candor is a bit of an amalgamation. I know the way the story was told to me. I know the way I would retell it. And now I know what Shawn really thinks of the adventure through my talks with him. I’m going to piece this together so that it seems cohesive and gets the point across but I ask that if you are reading this that the over arching point is Shawn and his point of view on the matter.
Chuck and his stoner friend were not gun enthusiasts and were away from the group doing what ever the hell they were there to do when they were confronted and detained by the locals. I’m not clear on exactly what transpired there because Shawn was not clear on it either. No police had arrived, but his was Harris County. It would not be long. Wherever the Sheriff’s department was it had become clear to Shawn’s party that Chuck and his friend were done for the evening. The sensible mature thing to do would have been to lower weapons and wait.
“I don’t remember you telling it like that,” I said to Shawn as we sat in his shared room at the nursing home.
“Not our finest hour,” Shawn said.
“No, I mean what about the game wardens? I remember you said you were on the run from game wardens.”
“Not our finest hour. Game wardens. It was Harris County (the sheriff‘s department). I don’t… I don’t think there were game wardens,” Shawn replied wearily. “That dumb ass Chuck got a ride from the sheriff’s department. They didn’t even charge him. They took his stupid ass home and I had to trudge back on my own,” He said to me. “Not our finest hour. We were so stupid.”
I paused a moment to let his speak a bit longer. He had a tendency to ramble even when we were kids but now it was even worse.
“Do you remember the point at when you became separated from the group?” I asked.
“Yeah,” he said. “We watched as those farmers took Chuck and we decided to get out of there.”
“I remembered you telling me you heard…”
“Game Wardens! Hands in the air!” The group heard as they looked around panicked. Mike, or the other Mike, yelled out, “You’ll never take us alive!” before he shot out the only visible light in the area. The one hanging from the telephone pole. The brief shower of sparks quickly faded as the light blink out. The area was shrouded in darkness and from in that dark a hand came and placed itself on Shawn’s collar pulling him along. “Come on!” heard Shawn and off he went running his ass off in the direction he thought his friends were in.
“Is that how you got separated?”
Shawn was looking out the window and took a moment to answer. “I couldn’t keep up. They left my fat ass behind. Their all running over this field like commandos and I had this fifty pound rucksack on my back. So stupid.”
“I remember you telling me about the sleeping bag.”
“Oh, my God. Yeah. That safety GD orange sleeping bag.”
“It came undone from your back pack?”
Shawn ran as fast as his legs could carry him under the strain of the back pack. He did not realize that as he jostled the load around that his bed roll, day-glo orange in color, had come unfurled from his pack and was presently trailing after him in the same bobbing pattern in which he ran. He likened himself to a Chinese dragon in a new year parade minus the music and fire crackers. He was that conspicuous anyway. After ten minutes of running Shawn realized that he could no longer hear his friends. Mike, Eddie, Caesar, and the other Mike were gone.
“What did you do? Were you scared?” I asked.
“Hell yeah I was scared. I’m out in the middle of GD nowhere and Chuck was picked up by now. My friends were gone. I was pretty sure I had Sheriff’s after me. I was pretty scared.”
“What did you do then?”
Shawn smiled. “I followed the planes.”
Shawn was alone in the dark with no light and no clear idea on how to go back or what the alternative was. At that moment a commercial airliner, one of a dozen he had not really paid attention to earlier, flew in over head in its final approach to Intercontinental Airport. Shawn remembered that Mike’s house was very near the airport and placed somewhere in between it and where he was at that moment. So Shawn rolled up his wayward sleeping bag, got the rest of his gear straight and followed the planes.
“Pretty smart.” I said.
“Not our finest hour,” he replied.
The phrase kept popping up in his speech. Shawn was one of those guys given to repetition. He often got hold of a phrase and used it until it was about to drive you crazy. But something about the way he was saying it now started to gnaw at me. My purpose in coming to visit him was to uplift his spirit’s a but in my asking about a retelling of this adventure the opposite seemed to be happing. I wasn’t sure. I thought perhaps this was just his current state of health. The fact that he was tired now all the time. The fact that for the most part he has nothing to do but watch TV all day. I thought about the nature of the story and what his retelling some twenty-five years later was stirring up in him. I had not counted on something that seemed so benign and humorous to me to be anything else to him. I had not counted on his hindsight. Shawn always had a way of taking the raw terror out of anything and finding something humorous in it. The story with the van from earlier. The story he used to tell about scary Mike’s outwitting of a prosecutor while on the stand avoiding prosecution for God knows what. The stories he would tell of his father, Kendall, from his three tours of duty in Viet Nam. He always had something that was funny to say. This had me wondering for the first time all the horrific shit he had to filter through in his mind to get these nuggets of hilarity.
Shawn followed the planes for a long while. He had no way of knowing the distance and when you are tired lost and think you are being pursued time has a way of slowing to the point of practical halt. It was midnight in the realm of forever and Shawn was going on pure adrenaline now. He saw the trees he was walking beside fall away against the contrast of the deep dark sky set semi-alight by the glow thrown off by the airport. Before him were grassy plains as far as the eye could see. He made for them with renewed vigor thinking that this meant his journey was almost over. He stepped on to the grass and found out how wrong he was when his foot sank to his knee in a fetid bog.
“I was soaked. Every bit. Eaten up by mosquitoes and now my ass was in a swamp. Not my finest hour.”
“I remember this bit. Were you worried about gators? Snakes?”
Alligators are common on the Gulf Coast but not in well populated areas. Because of urban sprawl the gators that did live near us were usually on the small side. Not much threat to the life of a grown man but you sure as hell don’t want to step on one in the dark. Water moccasins and cottonmouths, which may actually be the same animal, were far more common and more dangerous. If Shawn had been bitten by one of these he had better have hoped the sheriff’s were after him and that they were close. These snakes are venomous and slightly aggressive.
Shaw trudged on. He was already wet and reasoned that he did not have far to cross this swamp by the lights of the ever nearing airport. Twenty minutes walking through muddy grassy water takes a lot out of you and while it was not advisable to stop when Shawn spotted a fallen log he decided to take a breather. It was the only high dry patch of ground he saw and did not want to miss this chance to collect himself. He sat on the log and looked out at the lights of the airport wondering just how far he had come and where his friends were. After drinking a little water he was about to get back up when he felt a tiny burning sting on his hand. Then he felt another. As the stings started to multiply he thought he felt a similar sensation on his leg and hip. He shot up and realized the log was harboring a nest of fire ants. If you are not from the south then you may have limited exposure to these insects but they are vicious. One on his own is annoying enough but a nest full is a hazard. Ants do not bite as most commonly believed. They sting like bees and wasps. They inject a miniscule amount of formic acid into their victim and the result is a fire-like burning. A little formic acid goes a long way and soon Shawn was dancing out of his clothes and brushing himself off like a crazy person.
“God, that sucked,” Shawn said.
“But the rest of the way was clear?” I asked.
“Yes. I did not know it but I was like twenty feet from the edge of dry land. I thought I was home free then.”
“You thought?”
“Yeah. Not quite there. There was the incident with the deer.”
I smiled at this. “What do deer sound like when they are startled awake but a half naked man stumbling out of a swamp?”
“I don’t know what they sound like,” he replied. “But I sure know what they feel like as they trample you.”
Shawn had managed to clear most of his clothes of fire ants and had put on as many as much as he could. He was on dry footing now and no longer feared snakes and gators. Scratching from the ant bites and limping on sore wet feet he made for the cover of a copse of nearby trees. He stood breathing hard leaning on a tree and after gathering himself he ran into the lightly forested area. At first he was not aware of what hit him or why he was on his back but as soon as the first hooves hit him in the gut, groin, and chest he understood. Catching a hoof across the cheek Shawn scrambled to his feet screaming every swear word he knew. “S***! F***! G** D*****! SOB! M***** F*****! ARRRRGHHHHH!”
“And that was the last of the mishaps?” I asked. Shawn had that far away look again. “I mean the whole night was just one thing after another,” I went on. “But that was the last of the…”
“Yeah. That was all.”
“You found Mike’s house.”
“I found Mike’s house. The sun was coming up. They were all there. Chuck got home first courtesy of Harris County. The others that were with me got there after.”
“Were they concerned about you?” I asked.
“Oh, yeah. They were really glad to see me. They were so worried they were about to go out for Denny’s.”
I laughed at this as Shawn smiled a little. He had managed to catch them literally as they were heading out the door to grab a bite.
“You went with them then?”
“Yeah. I went with them.”
“What did you have?”
Shawn laughed and smiled again. “Better food than they have here.”
In the end it was not likely that any game wardens were actually involved in this incident. It was really unlikely that someone shouted “You’ll never take us alive.” It was even more unlikely that my friend was ever directly pursued by sheriff’s deputies. Though it’s an near certainty that the light over the railroad tracks was shot out. All in all what we may have here is something that certainly happened but was also certainly embellished upon. But it was a good story. And there is no reason to abandon a good story just because it’s not all true. As far as this incident “Not being his finest hour”, I do not know that I would disagree. But twenty odd years ago in the days after the incident when he was telling us all this story he sure made it seem like it was. And that is what I took from it.
The word Cocksure was conspicuously place in this writing to honor Shawn’s juvenile penchant for giggling at such things.